I have often asked myself “If I was at the Last Supper, who might I have been?”

Would I have been Peter, John, James or maybe even Judas?  or any of the others disciples for that matter.

There have been times I am sure I have been like all of the disciples at one point or another.

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I have done a lot in my life that I am not that proud of, but thank God I have never blatantly denied Christ like Peter did, but considering what he faced, who knows? I simply pray I would never do the same. I have also not intentionally betrayed Jesus like Judas, but I am sure there have been times that I should have spoken up in a crowd or even in a small group and declared my faith in Christ stronger than I did.

But those of you who know me well, know I am pretty outspoken and opinionated.  Sometimes that is a good thing and sometimes it is not so good!  Even one of my dearest friend’s son’s once pointed that out about me, saying “Miss Corby is pretty opinionated isn’t she mom?  That is pretty funny coming from an eight-year-old who isn’t even your own child.

But still, I often wonder who I would have been during Christ’s ministry and the last days and hours of His life.

Could I have been John the Baptist preparing the way for the Lord?

Would I have let Jesus wash my feet?

Would I have washed the feet of another?

Would I have recognized Christ as the true, one God?

Would I have truly believed that He was the Way, the Truth and the Life?

Could I have been the woman at the well?\Would I have been the woman who reached out to touch Him in faith for healing?

Would I have carried Christ’s cross down the Via Dolorosa?

Would I have been John, who stayed at the foot of the cross and later took care of Jesus’ mother?

Would I have denied Christ three times like Peter?

Or worsyet,, maybe I wasent even but there rather a roman soldier casting lots for Jesus’ clothes.

And even worse yet, could I have been someone in the crowd yelling “Crucify Him”, “Crucify Him.”

I pray not …

I certainly pray I would have recognized Christ’s holiness and been a passionate, dedicated follower of Jesus Christ until the very end of His life and mine. I pray I would have withstood the torturous death that most disciples endured to the very end with dignity.

I want to be a dedicated woman of God and loyal follower of Christ.

I want to be like John, loyal and faithful until the very end; unwavering at the foot of the cross of Christ. Terrified probably, but none the less a loyal and faithful friend in good times and in bad.  I would like to be Peter, the one that yes, denied Jesus but the same one whom Jesus said “Upon this Rock I will build my church.”

So today may we remember the suffering of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I pray we may want to spend a moment or maybe even two or three , thinking about whom you might have been at the Last Supper.

The bottom line is this – if you don’t like who you think you would have been, it’s never too late to be someone else.

So dear sweet friends, be blessed and encouraged abundantly today as we remember that there is a reason you were not at the Last Supper and that is because God has placed you in this time in history for a reason.

Now, go fulfill your purpose and be the person God has called you to be in the Holy and Mighty Name  of Jesus !



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